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renephobe
whats that word mean?
i don't know
but then again
what does anything?

xenophobe
ah now that word means something
but then again
why should you fear me?

confusionoscope
thats what my eyes are
the word presents itself
like that kaleidoscope
that broke

i spoke
there, i said what was on my mind
now forgive me my bated breath
as i try to figure out
if the truths i spoke
were sufficiently described as artistic lies

tricks of the mind
i play and im played blind
until stumbling, a blind man
i turned back to the same door
from where i came in

there is a way back in (i think)
if i try hard again
if i was to be a different man
if i were to
re-wire my brain

but the room im trying to get into
is a bit untidyt
im not proud of it
but a lot of effort
if i want to live in it

or take my chances
in the dark
hearing geckos fart
and listening to shadows creak
as stumbling, another door
i seek.