Trip 2 - an instant in the distant (?) future

Never seen but always realized. ever felt but never chastised. You were there in the unforgotten nights, holding my hand and watching me cry, with pain in your eyes. you were here when i raised my voice. So thoughtlessly did i chastise. So painfully did i inflict upon you, that which you never dreamed of inflicting upon me.

So then we moved and we are here and i am at your bed, and these memories flood. of a love i thought i could better. of a caring i thought i would never need. of a hand i thought i'd never stoop so low as to hold. Memories of the times i laughed secretly, ridicule in my mind. the times of sacrifice, when i was the only one left, supported by hardship, on the lap of luxury.

You left me to live and took death upon your shoulders. from the moment you saw me, you were smitten.

And now i live on to take your legacy. Cursed by your love and my ingnorance. To be slighted at every turn, To suffer in the memory of my cruelty. But i know you know, and i know too, that in reality, there was no love lost. for when it came to you and me, we simply showed it differently.